Wednesday, February 19th, 2025

We got a shit load of snow and ice the past couple of days. So bad that even the city buses have been shut down the past two days. I don’t drive or have a car and getting an Uber, while possible, is extremely expensive because of price surges and the wait times are horrendous.  So, I will be snowed in for a few days. Ugh, I hate this! I will have to order an Uber tomorrow to get some more vape juice though because God knows I need my nicotine. Even Bobby got snowed into my apartment for the past two days and finally left this morning. I only got like an hour in of camming with him here yesterday but it was still a blast, nonetheless! I love my time on my webcam. We wound up ordering dinner in from IHOP last night and surprisingly someone delivered it in this weather, although the first driver cancelled and she was on a bicycle and was going to ride her bike in this shitty snowy, icy weather??? She never even left the house, let alone get my order, so I had to ask her to cancel getting my order and let someone with a car get the order.  But having Bobby over the past couple of days was nice because we wound up having a lot of sex!!! Lol.  But he’s gone now for the next day or two, depending on the weather, and I’m home alone and doing solo cam shows the next couple of days so hit me up to book some time with me on my cam!!!

Wednesday, February 12th, 2025

Today was definitely the best day I’ve had in a long time. I’ve stayed busy and just focused on being a cam girl and kicking ass and making a better future for myself. I’m only in my 30’s now. I’ve got a long life ahead of me and I want to make the most of it. <3 I adore my work as a cam girl/sex worker and I adore my fans. I love what I do and showing off my beautiful curvy body for those who enjoy it. 😉 My fans always put me in a good mood!

Tuesday, February 11th, 2025

I’m still hanging on and trying to move forward with my life, although I’m suffering a tremendous amount of grief and loss over my mom dying 12 days ago. I miss her so much I can’t stand it and I have a lot of guilt over mistakes that I’ve made. She was my very best friend, my reason for living, my reason for breathing, my reason for getting up in the morning, and now that she’s gone, I’m having trouble finding reasons to get out of the bed in the morning. It’s just like this huge hole inside my heart is missing and will never heal. I try and stay busy and stay strong. I’ve been spending a lot of time with my cats and with Bobby. My Uncle Phillip came over Sunday to bring some of my mom’s things from the funeral like flowers and the eulogy and funeral programs. It just hurts so bad that she died. I’ve never experienced a loss this profound before. They say time heals all wounds. I hope they’re right because this pain now seems never ending and I’m just devastated and shattered on the inside. I feel so lost without my best friend here. I died with her that day and I’ll never be whole again. 🙁

Friday, February 7th, 2025

My beautiful mother was laid to rest today. I skipped the funeral. For a lot of reasons. My mom and I haven’t been close to her side of the family for years. We always declined invitations, on the rare occasions we were invited. Our family has hurt us both a lot. Also, I even told my mother a few months ago before she got sick, that I wouldn’t go to her funeral because it would hurt too much. And I meant it. I said my goodbyes to her yesterday in the funeral home and they did an excellent job with her hair and makeup. I’ve never seen her so beautiful before. I got such a peaceful sense of being around her yesterday I was her care taker these past few years and even helped her after death by helping to plan the funeral, even though I chose not to attend. I want to remember her in happier times when she was living. I just wanted to be alone today and not see or talk to anyone.  I even shut my phone off, smoked a blunt, and laid down for a nap and just enjoyed the day to myself thinking about my mom. I’m so happy she’s at peace now. Now I’m thinking/focusing on my future and what my next step is. Maybe I can move somewhere new where no one knows me. Just start over. I don’t know. But I have my whole life ahead of me and I’m gonna make my mama proud. She was an amazing mother and we have always been incredibly close since the moment I was born. We were closer than most mothers and daughters. She was my best friend. My reason for breathing. My reason for living. My reason for waking up in the morning. I still have a reason for living though. My faith in God, my cats, Bobby, my father, my sister, and my friends and my fans!!!!! I’m gonna be okay. I got this. 😉

Wednesday, February 5th, 2025

Sorry for the lack of updates lately, guys! I mean, I’m still camming and doing shows and everything and getting to interact with my fans is helping me so much with the loss of my mom. I’m still missing her like crazy. She passed way 6 days ago and I’m beyond devastated. More than words can say. A piece of me died with her that day. COVID killed her and her heart finally gave out and just stopped. I know she’s with the Lord now and isn’t suffering anymore, but dang, I’ve never experience a sadness or a loss this profound before. I’m trying not to cry or let myself feel anything because once I start crying, I can’t stop. Yesterday was especially bad but I pulled through it. But like I said, I’m still doing cam shows several hours a day and that’s helping keep me occupied and have some fun! I’m working over on Streamate a lot now camming for them and make decent money. I need to get more active on LoyalFans again (like OnlyFans but better….there’s a link here on my site). My weed man also hooked me up so I spent most the day high and in a good mood. Lol. I needed that. 😉 I’m gonna pass out and sleep real good tonight. Lol.

Saturday, February 1st, 2025

I’m sorry I haven’t posted more, guys. My mom died on Thursday, January 30th at 3:59 in the morning. Her heart finally gave out and it stopped. COVID killed her. I’m devastated beyond words. I’m mostly numb and in shock though. She was my best friend, my world, my rock, my everything. my reason for breathing, my reason for living. I got the call at 4:32 in the morning Thursday morning. I was already up because I had just got done camming a little while earlier and was taking a break before I got back on again. I immediately rushed down there to see her and she was still warm, except for her hands which were cold and turning blue. I stayed with her for a couple of hours before leaving to come home. It’s still such a shock to me. I miss her so much. It just feels so unreal. I mean, she’s been sick for a long time and had been in a coma for over 3 weeks and even spent her 71st birthday in a coma. She fought as hard as she could for as long as she could. My brother came up yesterday and we started planning the funeral. He never came up to visit her while she was sick in the hospital over the last 5 weeks which angered me but at least he stepped up in death and is paying for everything for her funeral which is good because I can’t afford it on my own. It’s going to cost thousands of dollars. A part of me is missing. A part of me died with her. The pain is unreal. Most of the time, I can’t cry just because it still doesn’t feel real. But when I do cry, I can’t stop it. That’s why I can’t let myself cry. I don’t want to feel anything but numb. My mom’s viewing is next Thursday evening and the funeral is the day after, next Friday.

Yesterday morning, I woke up around 5:30 to go to the bathroom. I was out of my room for no more than 30 seconds and came back into my bedroom to lay back down and go back to sleep when I noticed the neon rainbow colored Christmas lights hanging on the ceiling above my bed were all lit up. I did not turn them on and Bobby says he didn’t either. He doesn’t even know how and I don’t see how he could’ve even done it that quickly because you have to actually  unplug stuff from the outlet and then turn the lights on and you can’t do that in 30 seconds or less. He was out cold when I came back in. I think it was my mom saying she was with me and that she’s okay and that brought me so much comfort. <3

I miss my mom so much. 🙁

Tuesday, January 28th, 2025

Well, yesterday got off to a bad start but it ended nicely! Bobby came over and we really enjoyed our time together. He even ate my pussy and licked my asshole real good! I loved every minute of it! He has such a talented tongue! It was nice to have some company because I really hate being alone right now. But when he’s not here, I spend a lot of time doing cam shows and interacting with fans so I’m never really alone. I love talking to my fans! I’ve also got a lot of friends and family around me right now so I know I’ve got lots of support. Plus, I’ve done SO much shopping thanks to some money I came into recently. I got a brand spankin’ new gaming laptop that comes tomorrow, a new high quality webcam, a really fancy Android tablet, lingerie, bras, shoes, cute new wallets and purses, furniture, toiletries, and just tons of stuff! Since I had all this extra money, I even stocked up on necessities like cat food, shampoo and conditioner, toilet paper, paper towels, laundry detergent,  dish detergent, makeup, and just the essentials so it saved me a ton of money out of my own pocket. It’s always fun spending someone else’s money! LOL. So I keep getting all these packages from Amazon delivered and I’m throwing away so many boxes! LOL. I made Bobby take out a lot of it this morning though so it saved me a trip to the dumpster. OMG shopping is so much fun! And with my new laptop, webcam, and lingerie all arriving, I’ll have even more fun doing cam shows, videos, and picture sets for my fans! New content coming soon!!!! I’ll keep you posted. 😉

So, my mom was transferred to a new facility last night at a different hospital where they’ll take her off of the ventilator and put her on a trache since she’s still in a coma and having trouble breathing on her own.  Doctors still don’t know exactly why she’s not waking up but think it’s due to brain swelling. They tried to treat it with antibiotics and steroids but nothing worked. I still hope a miracle happens but I just don’t think she’s going to make it and it’s breaking my heart. 🙁 I miss her so much! She’s my best friend and I tell her everything but she’s been in a coma for three weeks now and we’ve never gone this long without talking. I still talk to her though in case she can hear me, because some coma patients can still hear and say so after they woke up.

Have a great day, guys!!! Kisses! ~Camerella

Monday, January 27th, 2025

Ugh, I’ve got a stalker!!! A crazed fan who has taken shit too far and has become obsessed with me and is threatening me and just acting crazy like he’s on drugs and isn’t making any sense. I’m not afraid of him. His threats are a joke. I’m more annoyed than anything because it’s just gone too far. He was cool at first and spoiling me and taking good care of me and treating me like a queen but then he started to turn ugly and crazy and weird and creepy….and it just ain’t worth the money anymore, and even he stopped sending any sort of payment to deal with his crazy ass shit but dude, if you’re gonna be acting a mother fucking fool, I’m gonna get paid decent to be putting up with that crazy ass shit. Luckily I’ve saved all the correspondence from him and can always go to the police and file charges and get a restraining order if need be. I’ve been a cam girl since 2004 (although I retired in 2016 to go to dental assistant school but made a come back in 2020 because I missed camming so now I do both). I’ve had my fair share of stalkers and weirdos, but they’re mostly harmless. But this guy, ugh, he takes it to a whole new level. I adore 99.999% of my fans but the occasional weirdo pops up and makes me what the hell is wrong with people and why aren’t these crazies locked up in prison or  mental hospital? Ugh. so frustrating.

I’ve got enough going on with my mom on life support in the hospital fighting for her life and I’m already depressed and worried over that situation worried sick about my mom who is my very best friend and whether she’s going to live or die (and it;s not looking good because she’s not waking up from her coma and the doctors don’t know why). My heart is already breaking for my poor beloved mother and this guy comes along and just adds to the stress. Like seriously what the fuck is wrong with some people? Some people just have no heart. Where are my normal fans at??

Snapchat seems to hate me and always closes down my account but I’ve created a new one hoping it’ll stick this time! If it does stick, I’ll post my Snapchat username here in a few days and you can follow/add me on Snapchat and see EXCLUSIVE new content from me!!! Stay tuned!!!

Sorry for the upset post this morning, guys! But this is my blog and I rant on here as well as have fun. So there will be happy posts, frustrated posts, mad posts, sad posts, excited posts, just whatever life throws at me. This is my domain and where I can share my life with you, both good and bad. 🙂

Warning of Legal Action

Name: Demiko

IP Address: 174.204.68.112

E-mail Address: [email protected]

*Harassment and stalking is a felony in all 50 states and any and all correspondence will be saved and forwarded to the proper authorities for charges to be pressed to the furthest extent of the law. Lawyers have been contacted. I suggest you stop, especially considering the legal trouble you’re already facing. I suggest you stop while you’re ahead before authorities in your hometown are contacted in regards to the harassment and stalking you are doing which is highly illegal. You’re in enough legal trouble as it is. This behavior is not acceptable. You don’t want this to get ugly. I am saving and printing everything out. This is no joke. You have been blocked from posting on this site as your comments being posted are now marked as spammed and automatically deleted without being posted. Further harassment and stalking after being warned to stop is a felony crime and will only make your legal troubles worse. Don’t do this. You will be sorry.

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Sunday, January 26th, 2025

Well my (former) favorite fan stopped spoiling me today and told me to have a nice life and he was gonna back off.  Kinda sucks because I was having fun but I guess two can play at that game and I’ll back off too. It ended kinda suddenly/soon but it was fun while it lasted! Kinda sucks it’s over though, but that’s life!

Either way, I had a good day today. I slept most of the day which felt so good. I didn’t wake up until after noon. I got a new laptop, tablet and webcam coming in so I can have better equipment to shoot my content and I’ll be posting a lot of my new content over on LoyalFans so keep a lookout, guys! I’m going to start posting on there more often so be sure and subscribe! It’s way better than OnlyFans. They offer a lot more features for me to interact with my fans. Plus I post exclusive content on there as well!

I’m still tired and so tempted to crawl back into bed….zzzz……felt so good to sleep last night and today!

Friday, January 24th, 2024

So, I’ve been craving these caramel/chocolate covered cashews from Wal-Mart lately. I ordered one box of them this morning and have another one coming tomorrow morning again. Lol. I am making such a pig of myself! No wonder I’m so thick! LOL. I love to eat!

One special fan is still spoiling me and showing me lots of love and I adore him!!! Thank you, Demiko!!! I even ordered some new bras and lingerie thanks to his generosity so I plan on shooting some new pictures and videos for him once they arrive! I can’t wait to show him all the cute stuff I’ve gotten thanks to him! And of course, I’ll be sharing it with my fans, too! He has just made my day and made me smile so much these past few days which has been such a blessing with my mom so sick and still in a coma fighting for her life and my family drama that’s come along with it. But he is just such a sweetie!!!

So, I kind of semi-hooked up with my friend’s brother last night. I was at my friend Rachel’s house last night and we had had a few beers and smoked a blunt and i saw her brother Brandon kind of eyeing my. I’m not gonna lie, I was probably dressed a little provocatively, especially for January. I had on a low cut tank top with some tight jeans on. I had worn a hoodie but took it off because Rachel keeps her house so fucking hot. It’s like a furnace in there, which isn’t necessarily bad but there is a thing as too hot. So, Rachel wound up going to bed early and Brandon and I, after a few drinks and feeling buzzed, kind of wound up making out hardcore. Things got a little heated and he wound up sucking my tits and fingering my pussy until I came. He was a gentleman though and didn’t push himself on me and that’s as far as it went and no, Bobby doesn’t know, nor does he need to know. Lol. But yeah, it was really hot. I wound up actually sleeping over last night and came home this morning. Hehe, I guess it’s going to have to be our naughty little secret, huh? But I don’t think you’ll tell anyone. 😉